What do you do when you have two pieces of evidence that cannot possibly both be true?
What if the one source says "Danger! Rectify now!" and the other says "Nah. Relax. Everything in fine. Moenie panic nee"?
Which do you believe? Which do you act on?
What if the fuel light in your vehicle is shining brightly and the fuel gauge shows a little over a quarter tank?
Step one - assume that the good people who serviced the vehicle broke something while working on it last week. This is obvious. Someone must be blamed to justify everything wrong or confusing in life.
Step two - to fill up or to keep driving?
This morning, as I walked to the fuel station from my now stationary vehicle, I had the time to ponder this question. Was it the optimism of "tank half full"?
Living in Zimbabwe, however much we winge,our survival has dependent on blindly trusting either that things are good, or that things will get better. I generally land on the former. Sure, life is not perfect, but it's fine. I mean, so what if there has been no water supply to my house since about July last year? Life is good! Godfrey gets water from the borehole down the road (when there is power for the pump!). I can shower at work or at the theatre. It's OK, really it is.
So did I therefore say "Hey, the fuel light is on. No problem. I'll be fine. Life is good"?
I don't think so.
On reflection, I think that I am driven not so much by optimism, but by selfishness. It is nicer if there is fuel in the tank, so I assume that this is so.
In the rest of life, there are warning indicators to tell me when to stop and when to proceed. But I choose to believe the voice in my head that says "You aren't hurting anyone, and no-one will find out so long as you are careful". This is the "nice" indicator. This path pretends to offer the most fun. The voice that says "Be ye holy even as I am Holy" is such a killjoy!
And it's not just my fuel tank status that brings me to a spluttering halt.
Will this experience change my life?
Of course!
As least as long as it's enjoyable to be changed.
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